Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Lighting a Candle for TT

I have lit a candle for TT Girl. I would have prefered to have her follow a light then to have me put her in a carrier and brought down to be helped. I made a promise that I wouldn't do that anymore, but this one promise has to be broken. I can't see her suffer any more with the pain she is feeling. I brought her home, I feel, under selfish reasons Saturday night and now I am second guessing if I did the right thing.

She looked up at me with those trusting eyes full of love (which now are also filled with pain) when I first rescued her. That would have been two years come this September. My gut wrenches knowing that I may have caused her more pain than needed to be for her because of my own emotions. I love her, she is another child to me, as all our cats and furry (and non furry) friends are to us all.

I will update as soon as I have done what I can for my little girl.

48 comments:

Tybalt said...

I am purring hard for you and for your mommy, TT. You are a brave and beautiful ladycat, and your mommy is a wonderful and loving bean. Our purrs and purrayers are with you both.

Much love,

Tybalt and Tybalt's Mommy

ZOOLATRY said...

The entire Zoolatry family, kitties and humans, are holding all of you close in our hearts...

Daisy said...

I know you will make the right decision for TT. Sending many comforting purrs.

Mickey said...

Letting go is the hardest thing in the world. I think TT Girl was happy to have one last visit home,sit on her chair under the table and say goodbye to her family and friends.
Her spirit was willing ,but her body is weak.Now she will be pain free and able to play with all that have come before.
YOWL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will miss my little friend.
Hugs & Purrs,Mickey

Riley & Tiki said...

Purrs for TT and her Mommy.

The Meezers said...

we will light your way with a candle too sweet TT

Finnegan & Buddy said...

Sending lots of purrrrs & hugs from Norf Carolina.

Miss TT loves you and knows that you will do what you can to help her when it is time.

Finny Buddy & Jasmine

PS from mom: Helping a furry loved one is the greatest gift we can give them. We take their pain into our hearts to thank them for the love they've shared with us.

Smeagol & Strider (Mystery & Gizmo too!) said...

We are purrin' furry hard and sendin' love for you all.

Jan's Funny Farm said...

You gave TT 2 years of love and nothing can ever take that away. Love will help you survive the pain of the days ahead.

Purrs and tail wags from all of the furry funny farm.

The Tower Hill Mob said...

We will light a candle and purr for you.

fivecats said...

Big purrs to TT and her mom.

Mo said...

Saying good-bye is hard, but you gave TT a loving home and a wonderful life full of comfort.
Our purrs and prayers are with you & your family,
The Purries from
Purrchance To Dream
and
Not The Mama

Grr, Midnight & Cocoa said...

We're so sorry. Love, hugs and purrs to all of you.

Zippy, Sadie and Speedy said...

We will light candles fur sweet TT, we know you would prefer to keep her but at times like these the choice is about not being selfish. So many people told me that when it was time to let go that it was the greatest gift we could give to them...it doesn't make the pain go away but it makes it just a little bit easier. We love you TT, see you at the Bridge...

HotMBC said...

It's hard to say goodbye.
TT, we love you and have lit a candle for your journey. And we'll send lots of purrs to your family.
Purrrrrrrrrs,
Boni Maroni and the rest of the Hotties

Eric and Flynn said...

We are lighting a candle for you TT and sending purrrs to help guide you on your way.
(((((((hugs)))))))) to your family.

Team Tabby said...

We are sending our purrs and prayers to comfort you.

Mindy & Moe

Victor Tabbycat said...

We is furry sorry TT Girl has to leaf you. She'll always be wif you in spirit an please remember how much she loves you. She'll never blame you for her pain, but you give her the greatest gift by helping ease it. I know this is especially hard when you just lost Fatty. Such a difficult month! Please know that all the cat blogosphere folks know what you're going through, including how hard it is to do what you know is best. Hugs, purrs, and tears for you all,
Tabbymom Jen & Victor

The Island Cats said...

Our thoughts and prayers are with you TT!

Wally, Ernie & Zoey
(and Sue a/k/a blkcatgal)

Junior said...

We are sending you tons of purrs and gentle headbutts. You are doing the best and hardest thing you can for TT. She understand this and will be waiting for you over the bridge.

ML said...

we is so sorry to hear about TT Girl, an we's will miss her. I's put tha Light a Candle up on tha CB, too, so effurryone can light a candle to guide hers way.
But it's like tha story goes, all cats know the way to heaven, them's so good.
It's so hard to let them go, most of us have learned it's better fur us to hurt than to let's them suffer.
We will all meet again someday.
Love,
KC

Elizabetha Souvre said...

ohhh!! all my love and kisse for you TT and your sweet mom...last year I passed for this with mi little borther Ahsito, my dear puppy
Kisses and hugs

LIZ

Parker said...

Hugs and purrs for a safe and peaceful journey TT. We love you very much.
To TT's Mommy,
You are doing the kindest thing for your baby. I am so, so sorry for your loss. You were wonderful to give her love and a happy life.
You are in all of our prayers this evening.
Godspeed TT, I will see you at the Bridge someday.

Sweet Praline said...

Special thoughts and purrayers are being sent your way! We are so sorry to hear that TT isn't improving.

Mom sends her special prayers to your mom!

Furkidsmom said...

Headbonks, soft purrs and prayers are going out to you TT. Hugs and prayers for your Mom too.

Sniffie and the Florida Furkids

Purrageous Pirates said...

We love you and your Mommy too. We are purring and purring for you both too.

catsynth said...

We are sending our thoughts and purrs for TT and her family.

Chairman Mao said...

We Ballicai and our Momma are sendin you lots and lots of huggies, worlds of purrs, and hearts full of love.

Lux said...

We are lighting candles for you in our hearts. We know how difficult it is. {{{{hugs}}}}

PB 'n J said...

We're off to light a candle for our brave friend. We're purring for you all - such a hard time.

Moki said...

Oh TT and Family,

We is all praying and purring very hard for you both humans and kitties alike...

We love you sweet girl!

Gandalf and Grayson said...

We know goodbye is such a sad time. We are sending you our purrs and prayers. ♥

Skeeter, LC, and Ayla said...

Purrs to you, Sweet TT...

michico*Adan said...

You have my sincereliest purr and prayers, TT and TT's mommy!

Karen Jo said...

I know how hard this decision is. I think TT is grateful for the last few days to be home with you. It is so hard to know when to let our furry friends go. I lit a candle to guide her way.

Dragonheart and Merlin said...

We are purring and praying hard for you.

Ramses said...

We are purring for you all, especially TT at this time... My Mummy's late Siamese was a rescue who she had for nearly 13 years and then had to help cross over for exactly the same reason. We therefore have a good idea of what emotional pain you are going through as My Mummy still leaks when talking about Barbie-Q's passing. TT too will feel this, she loves you and that part of her will want to stay with you forever, though her exhausted body is in need of rest that can only come by crossing over the bridge. While it is oh so hard if you can be with her and guide her her passing will be all the easier and you will know she is at peace and knew you loved her to the end...

Your friends,
Ramses, Isis, Tigmut'hep and Mummy

DEBRA said...

Special purrs and keeping you close in our thoughts...

Abby
Boo
Ping
Jinx
Gracie
and Mom Debra

And I will light a candle for you.
To shatter all the darkness and bless the times we knew.
Like a beacon in the night
The flame will burn bright and guide us on our way.
Oh, today I light a candle for you.

The seasons come and go, and I'm weary from the change.
I keep on moving on, you know it's not the same.
And when I'm walking all alone
Do you hear me call your name?
Do your hear me sing the songs we used to sing?

You filled my life with wonder, touched me with surprise,
Always saw that something special deep within your eyes.
And through the good times and the bad,
We carried on with pride.
I hold onto the love and life we knew.

And I will light a candle for you.
To shatter all the darkness and bless the times we knew.
Like a beacon in the night
The flame will burn bright and guide us on our way.
Oh, today I light a candle for you.

by Paul Alexander

The Lee County Clowder said...

Fare the well, TT. We hope you have a easy trip to the Bridge. With luck, perhaps some day we will meet you there.

ppuurrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

MISS PEACH ~(^.^)~ said...

You gave that final gift of love ... do not trouble yourself over the right or wrong...TT knows of your great love for her. You gave her a wonderful chance at life worth living for as long as she was yours. All our fur children are borrowed from their forever angel...one day they go back to her...only to send down another to take their place...
may memories comfort you at this time dear friend.
Know how much we all care about you right now...
Soft hugs from Miss Peach

The Taylor CatSSSSS said...

Saying good-bye is hard, but you gave TT a loving home and a wonderful life full of comfort and such amazing love.
Our purrs and prayers are with you.

Honey P. Sunshine said...

TT, yoo are so beyootiful and yor mommie lufs yoo

The Crew said...

Oh, my. Please accept our condolences on the loss of your beautiful girl. We know she was well loved.

George, Tipper, Max & Misty
The Crew & Crew's Mom

Charlemagne and Tamar said...

Safe and peaceful journey to your TT. You're a brave girl and your family loves you so much.

TT's mom, we're purring a lot for you during this hard time.

Charlemagne and Tamar
& Momma Colleen

Sammawow said...

We will light a candle for you, sweet TT. And we're purring for a safe journey.

Purrrrrs for TT and your mom,
China Cat & Willow

Cats~Goats~Quotes said...

We are purraying and purring for you, dear TT and your Mom.
The best thing to do for us is the hardest for our beans.
We love you and will see you on the other side. We lit a candle to guide you to The Rainbow Bridge.
Your friends,
~ The Bunch

Cheysuli and gemini said...

Our thoughts are with you.

Sen and Tom said...

I heard about TT from Ramses. As a fellow Aby, my purrs are with you. My #1 also sends comforting vibes as it was not too long ago that she lost "The Aby Who Came Before" and remembers only too well the desolation.

Sen-Chan